self portrait # 23 : thirty five

self portrait # 23 : thirty five

each new year is
crowding out the last.

soon, i’ll be alone in
a room full of selves
i have never met.


JANEisnotplain 3.19.09

happy birthday

self portrait: 35th birthday

i have
ended/begun
thirty five times

JANEisnotplain 3.19.09
part of the 0330 am project

self portrait # 22 : free time

self portrait # 22 : free time


my soul is made of tissue paper and words that
i have dreamed of capturing on paper to set me

free

i am a thousand faces in a crowded street
following in footsteps that have not yet been made
i reach for trees from porch steps to feel their glow
sink into my rhythm and imbibe their colors
i inhale the soft ocean and exhale hues and shades
i like to watch the sky connect the clouds of mind
dancing in doorways connecting joy and discord
i fall inside/outside the patterns of repetitious heartbeats
singing an echo of an ever changing life-

time

JANEisnotplain 3.27.09

completed while enjoying the waves in miami

self portrait#21: 3.13.09

self portrait #21: 3.13.09


i am not this painting
not this messy un-raveling
thing dripping red and orange
all over the page.

something is gnawing on
the inside. something is
liquefying me and
immobilizing me and.

eating doesn’t help and
running doesn’t help and
sex doesn’t help and.

i crave passion.
i hate silence.

why did [] this to me?
why did [] cut so deep?

[don’t] say something or
[just] fuck off


JANEisnotplain 3.13.09